Update

My life has taken many terns from when I started this blog in high school. I married Jeremy and he is now in the Army serving our country. I now get to stay home with my doughtier who is now almost two. I am working on my first novel and doing some freelance writing.

School

My school schedule is so screwed up. There is no room for us seniors. Right now I am sitting in the introductory course for a class I have taken last year. The only other opening is home improvement, which I took last year. I truly feel as if I am wasting my time. The counseling office told me to wait until Wednesday to see if any thing is open by then. This school should give up on the trimester thing because now their is no room for people that have taken a lot of classes by their senior year. I feel bad for the freshmen and sophomores because they have to take even more classes before they graduate. I hope for their sake the school gets rid of trimesters. They don’t work. The more I am hear the more I want it over with I have all my credits. And I HATE sitting hear for no reason.

Mommy

Angel said mama today. It was the most amazing feeling. She really got what she wanted, my attention. Shes bouncing away in her Jump-a-roo. That was truly a genius invention. If I knew who came up with it I'd send a thank you card.

My mother wanted Jeremy and I to go pick up a water key to tern the water on at her new house. She of course did not tell us it was going to be 8 feet long. Then she thru a fit when we told her theirs no way we could fit it in our little Saturn. Her and dad thought that we could just stick it out the back windows. and leave the baby at dad's house. Their is no way Jeremy is going to drive like that. It's an accident waiting to happen. Plus the baby was sleeping and we did not want to take her in to dads house where theirs no place for her to lay down. So now she is angry with me. Oh well I do not need the stress. Well I'm out for now.

Loving Mommy

momm's out.

I spent all day yesterday moving my mother out of her house. She lives on her own now. It’s strange my family truly is falling into peaces. I’m so glad I moved out last thanksgiving. At least now I’m truly not in the middle of it. It is so hard on Marie its tarring her apart. I really wish I could make things easer on her. She’s too young for all of this. Or perhaps to old now séance she is so used to having her parents together. I really hope nothing like this happens to Jeremy and me. I don’t want to see angel go thru this. Well I’m out time for my accounting final. See ya.

Wow its been a wile

Only remembered I had this with my busy life thinks to my TV pro class. Hears the blog stop on by and Check it out. I should probably update the babies site. No ones visited in a wile including me. lol. oops. Things are going well that girl is out of the picture and we live together now. Jeremy’s getting used to getting up at 4 am now for work and he even takes over with the baby a lot at night. Her name is Angel. 5 months now time fly’s by. Graduations coming up to. Oh yeah my parents broke up. I’m so glade I moved out before that. Angel dose not like stress or anger. If you go in the same room as her she will scream if your not in a good mood. That and she’s now at that age when she gets scared if she’s alone in a room. It’s so sad because I don’t want her to feel like she’s being left but I can not carry her every where anymore. She’s to big. Boy they meant it when they say kids grow fast. I miss her all day.

What is up hear?

Jeremy has been acting a little off lately. His mother is moving and he keeps running off to help her. Fine that’s good. But I talked to his uncle and his uncle told me that Jeremy hasn’t been helping lately and saying he had to go visit me. Which as you can guess he hasn’t been doing.

He’s been running off with this other girl a lot. I’m thinking he may have been with her. Well last night on the way to our child birth class someone called his phone. He looked at it and decided not to answer. I took the phone and seen the name. I thought it was one of his aunts by the name. He told me not to answer it because it was another person. The name he had in his phone for that number was only 1 letter off of the name of the girl. When the girl finally hung up he turned the phone off

Latter at dinner I brought this girl up and mentioned how I knew he wanted to date her in the past. He asked me how I knew that and I told him how he told me before. He went oh yeah I remember. About a minute or so latter he looked at me and said that was another girl. I told him to late he already admitted to liking this one. He did the whole oops routine.

Am I just hormonal and freaking out or is my fear that he might be cheating seem legitimate?

Fealing better

Well I’m feeling better. Jeremy and I have worked things out for the most part. I’m still upset that I sit home wile he goes out with our friends and goes and meets up with that girl. I really need a run. I feel weak in more way then one. Being upset really takes a toile on your body at 8 months pregnant, depression not helping my case any. Then I really feel weak with the fact that when I did see Jeremy yesterday all my will power fell away. I hate that about Jeremy one touch and I can help but no longer feel mad at him. Well I was still mad but I lost the ability to push him away. Then he kissed me and I was lost. He is the only man that can do that to me.

So today was his nieces birthday party. I can’t believe she’s two now. Jeremy and I have been together for a long time now.

I have the house to myself tonight. Dad has work and mom and Marie are up at my aunts house till wends. Its goanna be peaceful. Just wish I lived in a better neighborhood. I’ll be fine my dog is protective and Jeremy’s only a phone call away. I figure with tonight’s cool weather I can sleep with my blankets around me the way I like. It’s more comfortable that way. Well I’m going to bed . . . night.

Upset

Well Jeremy’s an inconsiderate jerk yesterday he knew I really wanted to see him. Instead he went off and hung out with some friends. To cheer another girl up! Yesterday was an important day to me and he went to cheer another girl up. I called him and when he said where he was I started crying. I cried my self to sleep last night because of him.

He’s been calling this morning and he came over. I couldn’t answer the door other wise he will never understand how upset he made me. I wanted to open the door and fling my self into his arms so badly. Instead I ended up with my back to the door on the floor crying. I feel sick from all this crying and the fact I had vary little sleep last night. I’m goanna go lay down I feel sick. Wish me luck.